Separation has brought me to a place far from friends. But the human mind is a real marveling piece of work. God is a genius for having created it. Ever so easily it adapts to changing environments. I was so sad at being torn away from where my heart lay…. And yet today I can confidently say that that has not left me hurt for long. Loss is a very complicated thing. And the human mind handles it so dexterously that nothing can be more amazing. There may be many kinds of loss but loss of near and dear ones is the worst kind. At this juncture the mind looks for something to fill the void with. It yearns to belong. Sad to say that my mind has not yet been successful in finding that replacement… and I’m suite sure it cannot for the simple fact that this time the void was created by very, very (and a million more very(s)) unique people. But I guess my character will make up for what my mind can’t do. Being a very outgoing and friendly person I am always friends with everyone I see. So there is not going to be any problem making friends and taking my mind of the sadness. But how long can I surround myself with people. There will definitely come a time when I will have no choice but to stare solitude in the eye and at that time I do not know what will become of me.
I finished training successfully. That’s bitter sweet because that’s the reason for which I have been posted and put into production but it is also the reason why I must go away. That is also the reason why I feel all this desperation, all this sadness, loneliness, this pain. But I guess life must go on rather the show must go on!! I tread the path that lay before me deliberately because I know of no other path. Given a chance to go to my friends I would grab it the way a grizzly grabs its prey!!
