Sunday, May 07, 2006

ANGER Quelled by a Dear Dear Friend!!

ANGER is always only an alphabet - "D" away from DANGER, so saying a very very dear friend of mine advised me to divert my anger toward more positive causes. She actually sat and listened to me for more than a couple of hours, as i went on and on about my problems, my sadness, my anger and everything else. I feel so indebted to her. The calmness and the intent with which she listened to me was, and will always be amazing to me. such sincerity i have not seen in anyone.

Its almost as if GOD had sent her in HIS place to solve my problems. She was not a very big part of my life until today. but today she is the the biggest part of my life second only to Hari. Having extended her hand in help to me today she has become the second closest person to me. until there was only Hari who know everything about me. toay someone else has joined that list. I always did like her but never knew that she would one day become so close to me to actually know as much about me as she does today!!

well, all of it i attribute to GOD. If not for HIM none of this would happen. also i must thank IT, for without the problem that IT caused my life wouldnt have changed as it has today!! Indirectly IT too is responsible for this situation. but that doesnt mean that IT deserves a thank you from me!!

The thing is I hold very few people close to my heart and i try my best to keep them that way. but when someone comes in the middle and causes trouble, u know disturbs the peace, i lose it and if i start retaliating it starts looking very bad and that i would love to avoid!! and the day i say "no, i dont want to be your friend", thats when i really have actually severed all emotional ties with the concerned person and IT has taken things to that extent where i have said "no".

and now the very sight of IT causes me to get very upset. but thanx to my dear friend, i have today been able to decide on a course of action to remedy the situation. she so nicely put if to me that i need to do what my instinct tells me to do, because, according to her, when u think about such problems you only tend to get more upset and that clouds the ability to think and make the right decision. so she asked me not to think abt the problem and do what i feel like the doing themoment i start thinking about IT.

and that my friends, is one of the most profound pieces of advice i've evry received. she's wise beyond her years!! she truly is!! i thank GOD for having sent me such an understanding and gr8 frind such as her!! i am forever in her Debt and in GOD's debt!!