The Pain Of Seperation

The time has come for me to say good bye to those who are nearest to my heart and to those not so near to my heart. Aishu has been posted at Bangalore and Amith at Mangalore. At east they are in the same state. I on the other hand have been tossed to Trivandrum. It is not the fear of going to a new place with new people rather it is the fear of being separated from these two people who have come to mean so much to me in such a short span of time.

 

Aishu in particular is some one who has grown so close to me that it baffles me, someone for whom I care so much. I can’t bear to see that something is bothering her. I’ve been around to take care of her for these 3 months. I guess I’ll just have to resign myself to the fact that someone else will have take over those reins that I used to once hold.

 

Amith is the big baby, the poor guy is ever sick (6ft 2in of sickness). Well built but with a small problem. And that results in pain, unbearable pain. Seeing him hide his pain reminds me of my father. He too tries to hide his pain and suffering from me just as unsuccessfully as Amith does. He too needs someone to take care of him. The poor guy I’ve kind of neglected him from the start. I hope God forgives me for those things that I’ve done.

 

Separating from them to walk my own tread is something that scares me. For, I have been with them all through these 3 months and they have been with me all thru this time. To suddenly walk alone means to feel a void that is very uncomfortable. The pain that I will feel is something that I won’t be able to describe.

 

Tears will flow,

hearts will break

and sadness will prevail

for a long time to come.

 

But time will mend the hearts

and the tears will dry at last

new friends will come my way

but that won’t happen today

new friends will come my way

But won’t be able to fill the void

That you’ve left inside..

 

Not just these two people, there’s my saviour Abhinav Gangwar. Literally GOD in certain ways. Programming seems to be child’s play to him. He seems to be able to wrap hid head around anything that has got to do anything with programming!! A genius in the truest sense!! I will miss him, his pranks, his jokes, mischief, and genius. So many times he has helped me get out of tuff programming situations!! His ways with the computer will be missed!!

 

My dad keeps telling me that parting is part of life and that I must not get too attached to people, otherwise I will hurt like I am doing now! But is it really that easy to not be attached to someone?? I don’t think so!! So I guess I’ll be on my way now!! Hurting like my dad told me I would………..